Last night I got into a fight with one of my friends.. It's alright now.. but I'm a little weaker due to it.

I'm wondering how I got like this. I remember when I used to get into arguments with my friends, I would get pissed, and be like flipping them off, and storming away.. Now, I'll sit there.. and get upset.

My chest won't let up with this pain.. and it's even starting to follow me into sleep..

I found a messed up song, and for some reason I keep listening to it over and over.. it calms the pain a bit.

Finally, I don't feel emo anymore though.. I'm not going to complain about my life anymore. I've resolved to saying that I bring all my grief upon myself, and I should not plague anyone else with my problems. I'm glad that y'all care about me.. and I care about you..

Last night, I had an away message up.. and two people kept IMing me all night, because it upset them.. but.. It's how I feel.

I'm sorry for being annoying..
I'm sorry for not being there..
I'm sorry for complaining..
I'm sorry for hurting you..
I'm sorry for not being there to save you..
I'm sorry for leaving..
I'm sorry for not being who you need me to be..

I'm sorry that I'm broken.

I'm so very sorry...


I have to go now. Best wishes to all.


Due to some news from a journal of my sister's I have to post this as well.. and considering I have artist's block, I suppose it's not that bad..

Well, Soooo. For the first ten people who post will get a free sketch of whatever they want.. and I'm sorry if it sucks. Buahaha. Yea. So. Go ahead and comment.. I'll be lucky if two people post. :gloomy:

1. Tell me what you want.

2. Tell me what you want.

3. Should I be scared of what you want sketched? xD

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Yea. I'll edit and put you in.