I don't really know what to do anymore.. Because of my big mouth, I caused a massive disruption between a few of my friends, and now one of my best friends is seriously pissed at me. Guaranteed, he has the right, but he has done much worse to me. I didn't really mean to let it slip, but it happened, and I can't take it back now. The other guy involved keeps talking to me as well, and I consider him a friend/accquaintance so I can't just ignore him.. That and I have been hearing that my best friend has been saying some horrible things about me, and that he ended up sleeping with my "youngest daughter" which turns out to be basically true, I guess. >_<

I don't know what to believe anymore.. I don't believe that he would do these things.. or lie like this.. but I don't know anymore.. I'm hoping that it is a lie.. but he tells me one thing, and then I hear another.. It's just too confusing..

This morning, I woke up crying.. I can't handle this.. I Feel horrible, I never should of let it slip, it wasn't my place to say, and I'm sorry for it.. My best friend has been my best friend for so long... and I can't imagine it being any other way.. but the way it's going, it looks like he might write me off for good. I wish there was a way to straighten everything out.. but the way my life normally goes, it doesn't look like this is going to be easy. *sigh* Happy Holidays. Ha.