SO. I'm getting sick of this stupid rut that my life has fallen into. Guaranteed, I was very lucky, and managed to obtain a job... but I'm sick of doing nothing on my offtime but Magic and WoW don't have the same exciting feeling anymore. I was happy to be in the new instance in WoW, and it was challenging and fun and shit.. but WoW just doesn't make me as happy as it used to. And my boyfriend is obsessed with WoW... so I just don't know what to do on that situation. I still like to play WoW occassionally but not as much as I do... When you cry because of a game, then you know that you probably shouldn't be playing it anymore... or at least.. not as much as you are. Magic has just become a chore for me.. I like going to LAN but I used to go once a week. On Friday. That's it. Now I go Friday and Saturday. I don't have any urge to go today, but of course, I will be going with Brian. I was hoping to see a movie today... and we had agreed on going to see it, but my boyfriend just HAD to finish his things on WoW, then his father needed his help.. So naturally we aren't going to go. Brian told me we could go see it on Monday.. but now it just seems stupid. I had a bad morning, ending up being sick, and having to leave work... and now I'm just pushing against my rut... wanting to get the fuck out.

I used to be a ton of fun.. I use to go to clubs, and see movies, and hang out with people almost all the time.. I had a blast.. And as much as my life quality is better... and my relationship department is wonderful.. I'm 20 years old... and I act like I'm 40. Suck. No offense to 40 year olds, but I should be living it up.. not sitting in a chair and poking shit.. I should be having fun, experiencing new things, enjoying the sights, going somewhere new.. or doing something different.. But I'm not. I'm gonna do the same damn thing I do every weekend.

Yay. Life Rut. How exciting.

I'm done now, you may now forget what you just read and go on with your life.